Saturday, October 24, 2009
Breakfast date
I really wish important things or activities happen in the morning so I don't have to spend the morning feeling restless and then after all is done, I can spend the rest of the day thinking about it! First dates should not be dinner, instead breakfast. Seriously.
I have a bowling tournament today in the afternoon and it is keeping me awake. And I didn't even had coffee last night. Cos if I did, I would probably cleaning the toilet sink right now.
Wish me (and the team) the best of luck! I will remember to streeeetttccchhhh before we start.
xoxo
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
stop and wonder
What goes around comes around. Yes I do believe in this. I believe that if you do good deeds, you will be returned the favour. If you hurt someone, karma will go around and bite you in the arse. So why do most of us go around hurting people? Go ask them why. I'm sure they will entertain. Well like me, I'm sure they wouldn't want to be bitten.
A change is always good. A change means no more boring old routine. This is always good.
Random, random thoughts on a Tuesday night.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Droplets
And I figured all I'm thinking bout is you, is you, my love,
My head is in a cloud of rain and the world it seems so far away,
And I'm just waiting to fall in droplets, droplets.
You left a mark, and I wear it proudly on my chest,
Above my heart to remind me that I feel the best,
When I'm with you, and everything is effortless,
You know it's true, my eyes are painted with regret,
And I don't need it.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
She likes you
When a girl seems to have no life cos she's always available when you ask her out, she likes you.
When a girl laughs when you make a (lame ass) joke that no one else can understand, she likes you.
When a girl texts you to tell about some funny incidents happened 5 seconds ago (even if you don't really think it's that funny), she likes you.
When a girl calls you at a random time to ask you if you think vampires are sexy (and she happens to have fangs), she likes you.
When a girl doesn't say she likes you, but acts otherwise, she really likes you!
Yes dear male species, you don't need muscles to get these hints! Trust me, when it happens to you, you'd know! Stop doing the reading-between-the-lines crap.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
new crush
oh yes, yes I have a new crush. Hot and gorgeous. Perfect smile, perfect body and I really believe he is a very nice person. Wait, it doesn't really matter if he is a good person. I don't care if he acts as the villain... as long as he has his shirt off :p
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Tuesday blues?
I hate waiting. God, I really do. I'd like to think that I am a very punctual person and I expect people to be the same way. And because of this, I get disappointed most of the time.
I also like the rush from doing things at the last minute. This is the quality that I have been trying to get rid off however to no avail. Therefore if time is moving really fast and I have millions of things to do, I would need more than just a can of redbull to stay awake.
On a different note (sort of), technology is such a disappointment lately. Yes, it is. Malas ku cerita. Annoying.
On another different note, lets talk about boys and girls. You know it is a wonder, to me atleast, why guys are finding it really difficult to understand the female population. It is true. I am not here to condemn all men, but you have to admit, the majority of you are just hopeless in trying to understand us. Yes women are indeed complicated. That's really the beauty they possess.
Okay, lets go back to chapter 1 of understanding women.
When they say no, what they are really saying is yes...
Monday, July 13, 2009
Saturday, July 4, 2009
curse flattery!
Really?
I'm pretty sure Louis Vuitton won't be too happy to see the flattery that's going on in China!
I rather not be flattered than see another me.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
When I say a lot, I mean a lot.
I've mentioned this before but I really think it is really really difficult to accomodate everyone's needs. Now I know you might think I'm just this whiny person who wants to brag about having a lot of friends and in the end complains about having so many friends. Nooo, I am blessed, really. It is just difficult sometimes because I think I am running out of energy to go here and there, be here now and be there 10 minutes later. I am sure some of you feel the same way, mun nda.. where the hell do you get your energy from? Mun ada coklet nya, aku mau! :p
Ok I should go shower and get ready cos we have ANOTHER surprise birthday thing tonight. It should be funnn! :D and tiring at the same time. Curse my lack of energy! Ah well. Will be back more regularly, I'll try :)
Till then, xoxo.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
21
Last night, I was as usual, checking facebook, clicking on people's profile, looking at their pictures and I stumbled upon this girl's page. Her primary photo was what caught my eyes first. Her name will remain undisclosed throughout this entire post. Anyway, her photos. I began my clicking frenzy, one picture after another.. one indecent picture after another. I don't even find them sexy.
It is really a pity to see our young people do this. She also has a blog and she can write very well. Very expressive with wide vocabulary. But people see past through this. People see the pictures, not what she has to say to stand up for herself. She argued in one of her posts that people should not judge her by what she wears. My dear friend, people will definitely judge you by what you wear. That is why businessmen go to their business meetings wearing expensive suits, lawyers and doctors all do the same.
There is nothing wrong with expressing yourselves. They say it is a free world. But to be naive as to believe this... Sweety, you are really just 21 years old.
x
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
a lil bit country
and is still growing, fast. I always knew I am a lil bit country (not!) hehe The truth is, I just enjoy listening to these country songs. I absolutely love Carrie Underwood and Rascall Flatts. Kenny Chesney is also one of my favourites and currently listening to Brad Paisley. These are just a few of the country singers and I cannot wait to discover more! :D
But don't worry, I'm not going to go around wearing cowboy hats...
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
violets are blue
How about the others with many claws,
I didn’t imagine to have won,
But he came with a blind eye to my flaws.
They say life is not a fairytale,
So don’t dress in a pretty white gown
but I only want my own tale
just the one where I don’t frown.
I miss you when you’re here
And the more when you’re afar
I love you when you have tears
And even when you lose your star.
you know when I'm bored....
I do the most random thing :)
Monday, March 2, 2009
Sunday, March 1, 2009
pet peeve
One of my pet peeves is to see someone chew with mouth open. GAH! Nobody wants to see the inside of your mouth while you're eating. No one. It is gross and I believe to an extent it is unhygenic! ( I will prove this point in the future ) But whatever.
I wanted to upload a picture of a person chewing his food while talking thus revealing the inside of his mouth to others. But I couldn't do it. It grosses me out too much. So friends, do not talk while you're eating, or swallow whatever it is that you're eating before you open your mouth to speak. Swallow your ungrinded food if you must, but do not EVER try to talk when you're chewing!
Thursday, February 26, 2009
raise the stack
They both have multiple personalities. They are the devil of the devils. But they can also be the sweetest angels. They are manipulative in their ways but a good bestfriend. They despised each other but at the same time the first to lend a hand to help.
I think being a bit egotistical can also help.
Remember when Blair was in a denial and couldn't admit that she was falling for him? And the way she walked away after an argument with Chuck but make sure to turn around to make sure she didn't hurt him too bad (I may exaggerate this hehe) or the way he would say hurtful things to her and turned away not to see her cry, but looked her from the corner of his eyes to make sure she didn't cry too much.
These things are to spice things up and there is nothing than a dull, boring relationship to kill.. well that relationship. Agree?
Did i just stray out of topic? hehe Anyway, yes play hard to get to get the attention. Good luck! :D
Monday, February 16, 2009
I want!
I really really need one of these! I need to photocopy stuffs for tomorrow's lesson (I know old habits die hard) but I am tooo lazy to go out. Help anyone? :p
Saturday, February 14, 2009
special delivery
Shall I say what's inside the package? You can guess. I'm sure you'll get it right :D
I'll leave you now with your thoughts. I have to go admire the above :p cheers!
Friday, February 13, 2009
welcome feb!
You would know when you have too much to do and when your work is subtly taking over your life. It is when you spend an entire afternoon doing your work voluntarily. Yes, I spent my friday afternoon trying very hard to finish my marking. After much hesitation and procrastination and not forgetting patience, I finally did it! I finished everything! A good thing was I didn't fail anybody so I couldn't be in that bad a mood hehe
And while marking,
yes, you watch the grammy's. It would take you more time than usual to finish work but ah well :)
Have fun today kids, for today, love is in the air! :D
xoxo
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Juggling
There are things and people that I've probably missed, forgotten, neglected then or recently and I am sincerely sorry. I will try to be more careful when I juggle next time :)
Saturday
Go out for tonight is a Saturday night. We all need a break from all the hard work we've done. But don't wander too far, come back for more :)
Have fun kiddies!
Heathcliff
You might remember him from 10 things I hate about you, or his more recent film Brokeback Mountain. Which ever it is, he has proven that he is talented and ofcourse, undeniably gorgeous.
Heath Ledger was born in Perth, Australia. I like the fact that his name was taken from a character from Emily Bronte's Wuthering Heights - 'Heathcliff'. From what I can remember, in Wuthering Heights, Heathcliff died a tragic death. He resented his life, lived in anger and bitterness. He was deprived of love, separated from the only love of his life. I guess you can understand the bitterness he had towards the world and everyone around him. The love of his life married another man whom he loathed to death. He engaged himself in a ruthless vendetta to destroy not only his enemies but their heirs.
Kesian eh c Heath Ledger ah. I still can't believe that he's dead. Life is sure full of (unpleasant) surprises.
karing leher
'pasal banyak air!'
'bukan....'
'apatah?'
'ikan ada leher kan?!'
HAHAHAHA! i got this one from one of my students. lol!
another one,
'kalau gajah naik pokok, apa yang pacah dulu?'
'errrr.... *trying to think of an answer*.. inda tau, apa yang pacah?'
'PACAH REKOD DUNIA LAH'
hahaha!
Seriously, this kind of question makes you doubt your intellegence sometimes, and in my situation, my place as their teacher. They seem to know a lot more than me! :p
irony
Ofcourse it is a popularity contest. You cannot deny that. The best dressed wins, the prettiest of the bunch wears the crown, the handsome-est gets the attention of all the girls.. y'know, the cliches. It is fun indeed. Students get all worked up over a dress, a tux, the hair, the makeup. Such fun. Come the awaited night, everyone turned up, all glammed up, looking gorgeous and fine. Then comes the food, the dancing, the winners. Everyone's happy, enjoying what they think is the most glamorous night of their life.
So what's there not to like?
Reality. Not every human being is passive, who listens to what you're saying and follows every rule. There will always be a bunch of 'black sheep' amongst the white crowd and spoils everything. Such pity.
Back then I was all around promoting the prom night, literally begging for friends to come to our prom, promising them great fun. But now, I will be the one to discourage them from going. Irony irony.
If I can just find a way to herd those strayed sheep back to the right fold.
the resolution
sigh.
Oo yes, balum jua lambat kan ni? hehe HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! New year means a new beginning? Maybe. Perhaps for some people, but others just have to carry on with whatever they had going on from last year. Nothing new about it. New year means new resolution? Definitely. :D I think it's good to have a plan, a direction in life.
I asked my students to write down some of their new year resolutions. Most of them are adamant on sticking to a healthy diet ie lose some weight, others intend on not skipping classes, and one has a wishful thinking of getting FOUR girlfriends. haha! tehibur ku eh. Wishing him all the luck in the world! I wonder if I should ask them to make a plan on how they can achieve those resolutions and a checklist... That should be interesting... hahaha!
AIM: 4 GIRLFRIENDS
OBJECTIVES: *some selfish comments*
METHODS:
places to go to -- gadong mall, qlap mall, at school, tuition school, at urang bebadak/kawin etc
pick up lines -- *all cliches*
EVALUATION:
january - 1 gf
May - 2 gfs
August - 2 gfs and 1 'SCANDAL' and 1 'FLING'
November - back to 1 gf
December - NONE
hahaha. seriously.. good luck to this guy! :p
instant gratification
I like the idea of instant gratification. Just simply because I don't like waiting. I want what I want now, not later. However, with the situation I'm currently in, I have no other option nor am I in the position to argue. This whining is going to go on for approximately one year so bear with me.
I want my cuti. sigh. I shall not dwell on this any further.. I might get into trouble for it.
There, my first public whine after a long time. I will be back for more
Raya
Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha everyone! :D
p/s: mun ada open house, panggil2 saja ah.. :p
the working me
I am now a working lady. Everyday, I am faced with new challenges, expected to impart wisdom to others, and in some ways, expected to help in the business of creating a well-behaved and educated human being. This task is ofcourse challenging for I have to deal with oh-so-many types of personality. But, so far, it has been one great and interesting experience but ofcourse this is just the beginning :p. Be prepared to hear (or read) me whine and whine about the workload, the markings and the stressful life of being a teacher :p :p
I am here to stay so welcomed me! :D Sorry for I have been absent for a really really long time, but hey, here I am!
Will be back for more, soon.
xxx
Hiatus... over
Anyhoo, I'm back to blogging. Banyak cerita plang but I don't know where to start. There were a lot of things happening in London last week, ie the wimbledon, JT's concert on sunday and tour de france and not forgetting, the putting up of SALES signs everywhere in London. I told u a LOT of things. I will not bore you with details of my shopping trips et cetera. :p Go to London and find out for yourself. I'm telling you, sale brabis!
I will put up pictures soon for y'all to have a look at. Oh and I have to go now. It's 14:46 and err I haven't taken my shower. Hey don't judge me. Nada kan buat bah yatah.. :p I will be back yes? See ya! xxx
green glass door
I can see the floor but I can't see the carpet.
This is a word game, and a mind-puzzling one. You have to understand the concept to be able to answer. After trying to answer a million time, I finally see the connection but not the logic. :p
We spent an hour before someone came out with an idea of how the game works, and baru tah slowly spread out among us. Paning kepala memikir! hehe. Bah have a try. :)
p/s: If you know how this game works, don't tell. just play along! :D
if miracles could happen
I received two important and very very happy phone calls today. Two of my best best friends got their results today. They were literally screaming telling me their results. It was really flattering that they chose to share the news with me FIRST. hehe! I'm very proud of those two. Well done! :D
With people getting their results and all, I think this is definitely going to be the longest 7 days of my entire life.
Best saturday night so far!
Congrats to those who graduated. All the hard work has finally paid off :D congrats again!
On the topic of graduation, I also want to congratulate the boipren for his graduation last saturday. I keep saying this to everyone, but it was such an emotional thing. It is the second best moment of my life. The first best moment ofcourse is going to be my graduation :p *amin*
I was glad I could be there for his graduation to witness the glorious ceremony taking place. To watch him go on that stage and receive his award, i was overcome with the greatest emotion. I am proud of him, and of everyone. And now I can't wait for my very own graduation ceremony. And make people around me proud.
The proceedings started with ofcourse capturing the moment on films. The students were lined up neatly, some standing and others sitting, and smiling all so proudly. There were happy tears and honest laughters. Next was the speeches (the moment we all dreaded). However on that day, there weren't all bad. hehe. After all the talkings was the certificate presentation, which i think was the highlight of the event. I love seeing all those people lined up on one side of the hall, anxiously waiting for their names to be called out on stage. I was trying hard to hold in my tears. I told you it was such an emotional thing! For each and every person that walked on that stage, I could see the proud faces of their parents. For each and every person who walked on that stage, I could see their faces sparkled once their names were called out. It was all a pleasant sight, and I wouldn't trade the experience with anything.
Next, food! The dinner was erm.. alright. It wasn't one of the best but it was okay. But I absolutely love the dessert! We all had a slice of a chocolate cheesecake. It was delicious! A bit too sweet but it was all good. :D
After dinner was served, and desserts were eaten impatiently, the event came to the end. The final proceeding was, as usual, loud music.. and ofcourse dancing. We all did a little bit of dancing to celebrate the moment. We finally called it a day at around 11 and took the taxi home.
So that's how I spent my saturday night last week. The best saturday night so far! :D
Roses are red
Although for some people they came in handy,
Others struggle to find not two but one,
But in dismay they looked and found.
- M.
Some people see love at first glance
Others stare but could not yet find
Some should turn and look behind
It might've been there during all those whines.
- M.
Selfishness is human's best companion
It stands by you through thick and rain
It is the best and worst creation
For without it you are no one.
- M.
Just a lil something.
just a hi!
I will update soon! Been pretty busy lately, what with packing and other stuffs (note: other stuffs include sleeping at 4 am and waking up really late, spending the day in bed too lazy to do anything, ignoring the growls of the stomach because i'm too lazy to cook et cetera). I will be updating my blog really soon!! I promise. hehe. I don't want to lose my faithful readers... =))
I will also be uploading pictures from the barbecue in my backyard on friday. Although, there aren't many photos of me unless you count photos of my head from the back or only half of my body is in the picture, also from the back, as a picture of me! :p Nonetheless, it was a fun day and hard work too. Stay tune for pictures people!
Be back soon!
xxx
Lets get fat together!
We're having a barbecue tomorrow! Yes we are. finally. Been waiting to have a barbecue since forever! And the day has come. Can't wait to eat food and more food tomorrow. If you happen to be in Bristol, do come around. :D Too bad the boipren can't be here. (to boipren: I won't have too much fun I promise :p) It would've been more fun if he could make it. :( Anyway... Good luck for your assessment tomorrow!! :D You, ofcourse, can do it.
On a different note, and a sad one, I'm moving out of the house next week. My heart aches just thinking about it. Time flies so fast! I still can't believe that I've done with uni. It feels surreal. It definitely does. Well that is how life works. There is no turning back, you can only look back to the past and reminisce. You can't mend what's broken, only learn from it. You can't change what happened, only regret, for everything happens for a reason. Life's hard, and that's the only way it should be. You won't learn anything if life's easy. Fact.
Sigh! Depressing!
Stop! Stop being depressed. Makan coklet, and minum tango apple, and eat mint chocolate icecream, and makan pisang, and drink a lot of water.
oh oh and makan nasi. You need carbs. and also fats. So we can be plump together!!!! :D:D:D
petite section
I went out on saturday (yes elaun baru keluar bah) and what better way than to go on a shopping spree?? Eseh. No no, I didn't go mad on shopping on saturday. I just bought a pair of new jeans. It's beautiful! I'm in love with it instantly! It fit me perfectly, which was very rare, in accordance to my height. Tapiiiiiiii this one is just perfect! The length, the width, the cutting, the material, everything. I may be exaggerating to a certain extent but you will understand if you know me! haha. I am indeed vertically challenged (not proud of it). Payah nyamu kan mencari jeans. That is why I am very keen in sharing this with you! Di mana nah ku membali? Dorothy Perkins arah the petite section, obviously. This shop is such a life saver. :D hehe. So kepada sesiapa yang mempunyai height yang seperti saya can check out this store. Just make sure you don't buy the same jeans! :p
So many of you are now officially done with exams thus the uni life. Most of you are probably constantly breathing sighs of relief. hehe. well I am! However, I do find these few weeks are going to be very very difficult. Why? The results are just, really, around the corner. I don't think I can sleep well in these few weeks! This is one of the reasons why I prefer exams than assignments. Personally, I prefer sitting for exams than spending weeks doing research for assignments. Firstly is because assignments are time consuming, and I think the markers are expecting more from you compare to exams. Secondly, usually in exams you will know if you did well (or not) but not assignments. I can never tell if the assignments I did were ok or otherwise. It's really frustrating that way. Some find assignments are better than exams because you can do research and more research and refer to you tutors and such. I dunno. It's just personal I guess. I didn't have any exams recently, only a lot of assignments. So you can imagine my feelings right at this moment. Debak-debuk. I can only tawakal.
One month till the results. Good Luck everyone!! :D
One or the other
Sooo… I have been unfaithful to my humble blog. Well not exactly unfaithful, rather neglected it for quite awhile. And this should not have happened! I am free, free as a bird I often refer it to, with all the time in the world, without the slightest care for anything in particular… atleast not in the mean time. So the question is why? Why have I not been spending my time writing something, just anything. It is because my life, despite my infinite free time, has become dull!!! Thus effectively makes my brain dominantly quiscent. Therefore, nada
Anyway…..
I have been thinking……. Of how much I miss math! I really do. I was good in math! It was the one thing I was good at, then. And I mean the only one thing. I have noooo idea how I manage to stray away from the ‘calculation/calculating’ path. And now I will be spending the rest of my life doing English Literature, a language base subject with no calculation involved whatsoever. It’s not that I don’t like Literature, I really do. 'Tis my passion. I just miss how solving a math problem could give me the satisfaction I don’t think I could ever achieve with writing up an essay. Being able to complete an essay could undoubtedly fill you with a joyous emotion and the greatest satisfaction, however in quite a different way compare to solving a math equation. These feelings are not contraries only different. These two fields are clearcutly erm..different and not just because one needs a calculator and the other prefers a dictionary. It’s much more than that. indistinguishable. inexplainable.
So why can't I do both? Simple. I simply can't. It is like, a doctor can't be an engineer. or a lawyer can't be a dentist. Some may can (although highly unlikely), but most of us (admit it) can only do so much. I guess this agrees with the notion nobodyis perfect. :D
So what intrigued this feeling? The boipren (not in a blaming kinda way) Hehe. He’s been busy with assignments and whatnot. And the assignment he’s attempting to do now is math-like (or is it math? hehe). Well it involves calculations and formulas and you know, those things. Yatah! I can only sit and watch while he does all the calculating, and thinking, and more calculations. It’s envious! Jeles lah. Sigh.
There you go. My long due entry. :p atu saja dulu ah. Will try to update this thing more often :D hehe taa~
Ugly Betty
Calling Eng. Lit students
I am selling most of my course books with reason, I want to skip the hassle of bringing all the books to Brunei. :D Imagine the space these books will take up! So if anybody is interested, do tell.
My modules were;
- Children's Fantasy Fiction
- Gender, Sexuality and Writing
- The Romantic Period, 1789-1832
I could probably throw in my notes too, if I could find them. I am usually organised, I assure you. Tapi I just did my assignments and now my notes are all over the place. :p
The books are really really interesting especially for Gender, Sexuality and Writing. This module covers books from the time of Oscar Wilde (Salome) to the comtemporary ie Jackie Kay (Trumpet). For Children's Fantasy Fiction, The Hobbit, Northern Lights and Harry Potter and the Philosopher's Stone are some of the books. For those who love poetry and the work of Jane Austen would probably love the Romantic Period. I studied Austen's Sense and Sensibility, Wollstonecraft's A short residence in Sweden, Norway & Denmark and I read a lot, and I mean a lot, of poems (some I hate I must admit, but most are undeniably beautiful arts). But unfortunately, I will not be selling my collection of poetry. Yang prose saja ah. :)
Interested? You should be. These books are amazing!
Some might think it is too early to start thinking of reading for the next academic year. But I promise you, you will not regret doing your summer reading! So.. what are you waiting for? Bali tah! :D
Email me at memie1911@hotmail.com
or simply, send me a message here!
Oh oh, I am selling these books at a very reasonable price. Approach me for the quotation :D cheers!
Sincerely,
Memie.
Beeware
This person sure knows how to play with words. hahaha. One good pun. :D
Oh don't worry, they got rid of the bees sudah.
7 minute dinner
It is Morrison's creamy cheese pasta! Yes, I had this for dinner. Malas bah memasak. To cook this, it takes only 7 minutes ( well more like 10-12 minutes from experience ) of your time!!! Not everyone is keen on spending hours in the kitchen just to cook a dinner for one. Well certainly not me. Therefore, this is one of the best solutions. (Besides Indomee ofcourse hehe) :p
Anyway, you need 100ml of milk, 30ml of water and 25g of butter. Simmer these until pasta is cooked. And...voila! you have yourself a creamy cheese pasta! :D
Cheese lovers would loooove this. So if this appeals to you, go to the nearest Morrison store and buy yourself one! :D It is cheap, fast and yummy!
We have a winner!
"Apparently I look old?" she tells the camera. "OK, that's fine. I would rather have wisdom in my eyes and knowledge in my head than just be blank and stupid and not have anything there."
I agreed with her but this is the fashion industry and beauty and presentation are all that matter. Too bad. Ah well. So that leaves us with Jaslene and Natasha. Natasha, I don't think she is pretty, although some find she is. She doesn't have the look and qualities to be a model, let alone to be the winner of antm. Talking about looks, she doesn't have a neck! I am serious! She doesn't have that long, sexy neck that girls would die for. That's what modelling is all about right? To have features that are the envy of everyone.
Next is Jaslene. I don't think she is drop-dead gorgeous, but she is definitely better than Natasha. I started watching this cycle with hatred and annoyance for her. But things changed. hehe. Enough said. Now lets have a look at the pictures from the season finale.
And the winner is
Yes everyone, Jaslene won. And I'm glad she did. Most would agree with me, especially those Latinas. So apa lagi? Anything is possible. Even a Latina can win the America's Next Top Model. Inda jua racist. :p Mun mau, you can have a try for the next cycle. I'll vote for you. :D But ofcourse, you have to be an American.
history repeats itself, sometimes.
Some say history will not repeat itself. But you can never be too sure. If history is told over and over again, it may get 'repeated' although not in the same manner but it is possible, and sometimes inevitable. If history is not meant to be 'repeated' then why it is told and retold? Some may say it is so people learn from the past. But that is too vast a generalisation. Have you heard about Judith Butler's theory on performance as a matter of imitation? It is something like that. When you hear, you learn. When you learn, you avoid - or some cases, you follow. That's just how it is.
Unpleasant memories from the past can eat you up and kill you from inside. Rage, anger, mistrust. And jealousy. So how do you let go? There's never a right time.
Just a passing thought.
this is just what i need
So I'm going to watch another episode of DH now. Just thought I'd let you know that I'm alive and kicking, or erm, more like sitting and watching, but yea. You get the idea. :D
Orite friends, i'll leave you with your revisions. We'll talk soon aight. ciao.
long distance friendship
ugh
Today is the first day I don't have to think about work, the whole day. Well it began yesterday but I didn't have time to really think about how free I am because I was out yesterday. Yes, out. Out celebrating aka shopping. hehe. Didn't get much as I can't obviously. It is the middle of the month. I have to start thinking on how to manage my money. It keeps flowing out and I don't even know what I spent it on! Not good. So together we try. :D Buy less, more money. That's how it's supposed to be right? hehe.
oh oh I did something berhasil today. I cleaned up my room. It was such a mess! I spent a few good hours just to clean up my COUCH. yes my couch. It was covered with my stuffs sampai I couldn't even see the couch. Next, I need to do my laundry. Lastly, GET FOOD! I need to buy proper food, pronto. Kebuluran sudah. hehe.
Orite kids, night night. see u again. xxx
first impression isn't always right
Anyway... lets talk.
Some say first impression matters. Some would say it doesn't. I used to think that first impression matters ALOT! but I am beginning to think that it is not.. and I think it should not matter at all. Yes ofcourse when it is the first time you meet the person, you will soon judge them by what you see. It is inevitable. It is either you like or despise the person. I do it too, all the time. But in the past few occurrences, I have learned that first impression isn't always right. And we should begin to learn to give another chance or even two.
Lets take an example from the America's Next Top Model :p I love this show! Anyway, I am currently on cycle 8. It is down to three finalists now!! iski ku! hehe. So when I started watching antm cycle 8, I absolutely HATE Jaslene and after a few weeks of the show, I began to despise the sight of Renee. They were horrible! I thought they were arrogant, selfish, self-centred and so full of themselves. They back-stabbed each other and the rest of the models. But now, I am beginning to... well, like them. From watching the show, I can see that ALL of them were in fact horrible people, in a sense that they were all self-centred and arrogant. So I guess it is a model thingy. hehe. Perhaps they were told to be that way, so they would look more confident (?). Perhaps. But whatever the reason was, they have changed and in a very good way. And now I like them. :D
My point, after much rambling, is that I believe everyone is capable of change. And that they can change only if we give them a chance.
Here are some pictures of Jaslene and Renee. :D
Siuk nyamu America's Next Top Model ani. hehe. And since I am now free from any work, I will be catching up on tv shows I have missed such as desperate housewives etc. I have an unlimited free time. (Pardon me for bringing this topic up again and again. I guess I am still not over it :p)
Finally!
I just finished my last essay a few minutes ago! yeayyy! and I am utterly happy!! suka ku. siuk bahhh.. this means I am officially done with my degree!
And now I can be careless again! Till I have to start think of the future ofcourse. But I give it a month or so before I start thinking about that. nyaknyak.
Good Luck again for those who are still struggling doing the courseworks and studying for the exams! :D Inda lagi lama tu. Lapas atu, lets go out. :)
Witty rambling
Biology is destiny. Do you agree? This statement could be true or otherwise. If biology is destiny, ie if a woman is born to be feminine and man to be masculine, how do you explain masculine women and effeminate men? Consequently, the traditional roles of men and women are transgressed because of these reversal roles. Men take the position of women and vice versa. Therefore, biology does not determine the future of a person. Yes?
And how do you explain transvestites? Are they cross-dressing for fun or is it because they are comfortable dressing up as the opposite sex? Or is it an innate thing? They want to cross-dress because they can identify themselves wearing those clothing, even if that means they are violating the norm. So biology can't be destiny, can it?
And how about homosexual relationships? Biology says heterosexual relationship is 'normal'. So how do you explain lesbians and gays? Are they abnormal because of their sexual preferences? If so, why are they abnormal? Perhaps this predefined ideology has changed. Perhaps it is considered as normal now to have member of the same sex as your partner. So that means biology is not destiny, rather culture defines your destiny.
It is all very confusing and ofcourse it is hard to tell which one is the right and the wrong answer. And that makes it a bit more difficult, don't you think?
predictable
First of all, it's blue. Yes I do realise that. Ive always used combinations of pink,white and black for my background colour, be it for friendster or multiply. And? I got tired of it. Not that I got tired of these colours. I got tired of being so predictable. So I decided to try something new. Therefore... I chose this theme! It's blue! :D lets see how long I can stand using this one. hehe.
another meal
I have just handed in two of my essays and now I am left with one. I should be excited that I am almost done with all the work right? Unfortunately Im not. I can't seem to finish this one essay for an unknown reason. I have been like this the whole day. Demotivated. And it sucks.
The weather wasn't nice today. It was gloomy and cold. It's good to have a friend who own a car who can pick you up during days like this. If you have friends who own a car, use them wisely. hehe. So I went to uni with a friend (and she has a car! bagus) and she came to pick me up because I was saying how it was raining and all and that I might not be able to go meet up with her at uni. Suka ku paham ia hint ku. hehe. And we spent the afternoon in the library doing the research on this last essay. I am literally out of words to write for my essay! Wish me luck people for I need them.
Oh this post is also dedicated to c zuraime as today is his (errm 22?) birthday!! :D Happy birthday zrme!!! Too bad I'm not there to memeriah kan suasana and to eat the food. I heard banyak brabis makanan kamu. Rugi tah ku tu. hehe. inda papa, next time I'm there, I'll be sure to minta blanja. You with me yan? :p bah wish you all the best! :D
Bah kamu, I should sleep now. It's 4am. I will write a better post next time. This one is crap. (Except pasal c zrme punya birthday ofcourse hehe) okeh. Adios.
p/s: Good luck to those who are having exams! Berusaha! :p xxx
just a meal
Anyhoooooooo, aku stress. Yes I am. Another essay due in 6 days. Gah! Its endless!
Bah i'm going to get back to my work. I have to prove that biology is destiny (or otherwise), that biology is socially constructed, that gender is a myth, that gender is a performance etc all in one essay. Interesting you say? Try writing an essay on it.
Happy birthday lagi to Khalid :D
Memie&Dillah
Three packets of Nescafe and a picture frame
I was reading news from brudirect.com and one article managed to attract my attention. 'Teenage cros-dressers detained in capital.' After reading the article, I found the title was misleading. I was eagerly reading through the article but to my dissapointment, the author only managed to write a paragraph on the mentioned topic and continued with random bits of robbery cases and other illegal activities. Anyway, I read the entire article and found some facts were a bit.. funny.
"Items reported missing were a water pump, a wire and welding socket, a water tank, two mobile phones, two gas cylinders, an identity card, cash totaling $193, a TV set, a DVD, purse, important documents, 12 gold bracelets and three packets of Nescafe."
The robbers nowadays aren't choosy. They take what they see and items that are within reach, I assume. hehe.
"Five house break-ins and thefts were recorded in a store house in Kg Jangsak, Perpindahan Lambak Kanan, Jln Maulana in Belait, Telanai Apartment and in Lambak Kiri. Items reported lost were a radiator, an electrical fuse, air con starter, glass table, stove and a picture frame."
So this picture frame, is there actually a picture in the frame? Or the robber left the picture and just took the frame? If he/she took the picture AND the frame, then a possible suspect is an ex-lover. He/she might still hold a grudge over the past relationship. :p
Calie eh.
Panda eyes
Oh oh C Dafi keluaaaaaaaaaaar!!! Horrorrrrrrrrrr!!! I know I know he's not the best singer but he's got good personality and cute too :( I like him. I was really sure he would be in the finals!! Ceh! That was so unexpected.
Lalalaalalaalalalalala~~
Marah lah tu. (:p)
Despite all the works that I have going on right now, I will always have to go out and watch a movie. :D You do too right? And today, me, the other half and some friends went to watch Spiderman 3!! :D So how was it? Well it was ok, the action started a bit late but then again thats how movies like this have always been right? They build up the suspence and save the actions at the very last minutes. True? hehe Eeeermmm... I'm not good in giving reviews on movies so I'll just skip this one too :P But I know it was a good movie (I didn't fall asleep or whine the entire movie and pray for it to end right then) :p It's worth the 6 pounds.
Oh I will post up some pictures from the weekend soon. Bah orite, I better get back to my work. I don't want to stay up till 430 again today. Babai~
Greeny scenery
hehe. I just had to do that. Si Rihanna menyanyi di background while I'm writing this :p
Anyway, I missed a day of blogging. Reason being? I was really tired yesterday! I was out the whole day! well sampai around 6 plang saja but yes I went out yesterday. Went out for lunch with them lovely final year Bristolians. We had our lunch at this place called Oz, it is a Turkish restaurant I believe. I had Tavuk guvech (its chicken) and it was not bad :D After lunch we decided just to go jalan2 (although Azriana insisted we go to the shops directly hehe). Bristol is famous for its hills and yes I finally agree with that. The thing is the place where I am living is not situated on any hills and so I am not quite affected by the terror of walking up the hills. Di town bah tinggi brabis hill nya! It's good for the health and the posture but still. There will always be a but for exercises. :p Anyway, we went to this hill called Brandon Hill and the scenery was beautiful. Young people sun-bathing while reading their books (to prepare for exams I believe but still don't want to waste the pretty weather yesterday), old people just sitting around and some fell asleep, and people like us just walking around taking pictures not letting the moment passed without any token of remembrance.
These are some of the pictures from yesterday. I guess this would only be more appealing to those nature-lovers. It was pretty I assure you. Maybe my camera picture did not really able to capture it. I need a good camera :)
I only get to take one picture while we were on top of the tower. It was really windy and I had trouble standing still let alone to take pictures! And my hair was all over the place. Oh which reminds me I need to ask pictures from Ihsan. hehe.
So yea that was my day. It was fun seeing them all again. While we were having our lunch, we got to talking on how this is our final year in Bristol and how sad it is to say goodbye since we've been here for three years and well, you have to admit it is sad to leave a place you called home for three years even if that means you're going back to your real home! Sigh. Ah well. Thats life.
Oh on a different note and a happier one, I got myself a new toy! And now I am going to shine all the way~ apakan. hehe. yes I finally got the LG shine. (Sher: Yes we have the same phone :) begaya usul ku memakai haha) And I'm happy :D
Bah ok peeps, I have to end it here. Take care! xx
Napolean Bonaparte
Yes I am. The pressure is definitely on. I am going to blame nobody (there's no one to blame anyway) for this is my own fault for leaving things to the very last minute. I have just started writing my second essay which is due on the 9th of May. And it is not going well. I have to write on something I have least knowledge of. The Romantic Period, The French Revolution, The Napoleonic War. I spent an amount of time just reading about the French Revolution and the effect it has on the Romantic writers/authors/poets. It is not easy I tell you. By the time I finished this essay, I will be an expert on the French Revolution, and that Napoleon Bonaparte. Wish me luck everyone!! :D Oh if anyone wants to help me through this essay, you are welcome to do so. The boipren already did and thanks to him!
So besides doing the essay, I spent my day doing my laundry (Yes I finally did it! :p) and my room smells of fresh laundry. Suka ku. hehe. Do you know how much it costs me to do the laundry? I always use two washing machines, one for the whites and light-coloured garments, the other is for baju hitam. To use one washing machine costs 2.40! mahal ah. And then for the dryer, it is 20p for 3minutes. THREE MINUTES! You can do the math. It costs me a fortune to do one laundry. That is why I prefer buying new clothes than do the laundry. Not exactly the best way to save money, but atleast I can tambah my clothing collection :p
I should sleep now. It is 2.55 and I really should be sleeping. And so I will. :D taa~
knock knock
Ahh.. there you go. Now we can all despise the fact that we are here and not in Brunei. Sama2 bah tesliur :p
It's the little things that count
It is a wonder how the word 'Thank you' can mean so much. It is certainly to me. You will be amazed to find out what this simple saying can do. It is a gesture that is appreciated by everyone, even probably your least favourite person. If a smile can brighten up someone's day, then saying Thank you is ten times better than that. So don't forget to say thank you to that stranger who holds that door open for you, or your friend who listens to you whine and never complained, or your mum simply for being her. :D These two little words can make the world a better place!
On a totally different note, I think I need to do my laundry. I am running out of clothes to wear. Well not really. Hehe. I just need to do my laundry. Brabis banyak ah. I haven't had the time to do it with all these works. Eseh brabis aku ah. :p But yea I need to go to the launderette, the sooner the better! And I need to clean my room. It is a mess. Macam kapal pacah, in my mum's words. hehe.
I am really tired and it's 2am. So the best thing to do is to sleep. Don't worry, I will be back for more! eseh. hehe. Bah i'm off to sleep~
Sundays
Anyway, how did you spend your weekend? I did absolutely nothing productive over the weekend. And now I feel bad about it. Remember in my last blog entries when I told you that I have million things to do? The million things to do consist of writing up three 4000 word essays and that totalled up to 12000 words. It is like writing another dissertation but now I have three main topics and none of them are related to each other!! It is even worse!! I'm screwed. Oh oh these essays are supposed to be handed in within these two weeks. I have a week to finish 8000 words and another week for the other 4000 words. That is a looooooot of words to write! I was supposed to finish one essay last week but I was ill remember? Yatah. The next two weeks are going to be hell I tell you
Lets talk about something less frustrating. Shopping I want to get a new phone and I have my eyes on this phone but still deciding whether I should get it. We'll see. hehe. But I am open to suggestions. Any handal phones that you would like to recommend? :p Oh have I mentioned that I no longer have any more classes? No lectures and no seminars. Well technically. I do have one more seminar on tuesday but I don't think I will be going to that class. My coursemates are not going so might as well take this opportunity to be naughty and skip that class, kan? Lagi pun I don't know what we will be doing since we have covered the entire module. Probably just sitting around, talking about the essays and our plans after we graduated. My plan after I graduated is to go back to my beloved country and makan semua makanan. hehe. And ofcourse I am looking forward to become a teacher.
Bah ok, I'm going off to bed now. I plan to wake up before midday tomorrow and get on with my work. Wish me luck!!